1 00:00:01,040 --> 00:00:02,490 Previously on nip/tuck... 2 00:00:02,550 --> 00:00:06,580 You really should lock up your firearms and not leave them in a bedside table drawer, 3 00:00:06,640 --> 00:00:09,260 you stupid bitch. 4 00:00:11,830 --> 00:00:13,780 We're still married? 5 00:00:13,860 --> 00:00:15,360 We're still married. 6 00:00:15,980 --> 00:00:17,990 And we have 3 beautiful children. 7 00:00:18,060 --> 00:00:20,750 Everything is just. 8 00:00:22,430 --> 00:00:23,980 perfect. 9 00:00:24,030 --> 00:00:25,200 I can't walk. 10 00:00:26,130 --> 00:00:26,640 It hard. 11 00:00:26,700 --> 00:00:27,560 So is stage 2 breast cancer. 12 00:00:28,400 --> 00:00:29,500 What does breast cancer have to do with anything? 13 00:00:29,580 --> 00:00:30,140 I have it. 14 00:00:34,830 --> 00:00:36,570 Don't fight it. 15 00:00:36,580 --> 00:00:39,310 It's less painful that way. 16 00:00:40,720 --> 00:00:41,610 Liz? 17 00:00:41,790 --> 00:00:42,620 Yeah? 18 00:00:42,680 --> 00:00:44,520 Can you stay a while? 19 00:00:45,310 --> 00:00:47,210 Just until I fall asleep. 20 00:00:51,140 --> 00:00:53,800 You and Dr. Christian troy had sexual intercourse. 21 00:00:53,880 --> 00:00:54,860 You and liz had sex? 22 00:00:54,930 --> 00:00:55,520 Yeah,so? 23 00:00:55,530 --> 00:00:56,390 Lizzie was there for me. 24 00:00:56,400 --> 00:00:58,690 She spread her legs and made me feel good. 25 00:00:58,760 --> 00:01:00,190 You were awake? 26 00:01:00,260 --> 00:01:01,230 Got my mojo back. 27 00:01:01,300 --> 00:01:07,260 I knew that you weren't sleeping,and I faked my orgasm,and you are a lousy lay! 28 00:01:07,280 --> 00:01:09,280 Oh,come on,I have an image to protect. 29 00:01:09,320 --> 00:01:11,820 I'm sorry,I have no idea who you are. 30 00:01:12,760 --> 00:01:14,640 I'm a goddamn icon. 31 00:01:14,700 --> 00:01:16,040 Tell him who I am. 32 00:01:16,100 --> 00:01:17,470 Candy richards? 33 00:01:17,520 --> 00:01:19,060 Damn straight. 34 00:01:22,490 --> 00:01:27,150 Tell us what you don't like about yourself now,ms.Richards. 35 00:01:27,750 --> 00:01:30,330 Oh,I don't go by candy richards no more. 36 00:01:30,400 --> 00:01:33,100 That name was given to me by a white man. 37 00:01:33,130 --> 00:01:34,970 My name is coco. 38 00:01:35,030 --> 00:01:36,630 I'm an african american, 39 00:01:36,680 --> 00:01:42,380 and I've been passing as a honky white cracker for my entire life. 40 00:01:42,410 --> 00:01:43,220 What? 41 00:01:43,240 --> 00:01:46,110 Yeah,my agent maury gave me this thing for christmas. 42 00:01:46,170 --> 00:01:48,810 It was like a genetics D.N.A.Gift set. 43 00:01:48,830 --> 00:01:53,360 I found out that I'm african in nature. 44 00:01:53,460 --> 00:01:57,390 All my life I've wondered why my career isn't bigger. 45 00:01:57,430 --> 00:02:00,500 Is it because I'm too beautiful? 46 00:02:00,620 --> 00:02:02,440 Or is it because I'm too smart? 47 00:02:02,460 --> 00:02:03,770 Not talented? 48 00:02:03,840 --> 00:02:09,460 I thought that,too,but now it all makes sense. 49 00:02:09,510 --> 00:02:12,820 I love billy ocean,I love chicken and waffles, 50 00:02:12,890 --> 00:02:14,910 and always I've been one of those people 51 00:02:14,960 --> 00:02:18,610 that i always know deep in my heart that O.J.Was innocent. 52 00:02:18,640 --> 00:02:24,720 I'm a black daughter of slavery with...with blood from the zulu nation. 53 00:02:24,780 --> 00:02:26,630 Well,you still haven't told us why you're here. 54 00:02:26,650 --> 00:02:29,500 I want some african american features. 55 00:02:29,550 --> 00:02:32,690 I have the chest,you know,which is,proof of my heritage. 56 00:02:32,750 --> 00:02:38,210 What I want is a big,fat,round beyonce ass. 57 00:02:38,250 --> 00:02:42,080 And i need it fast because my hip-hop album's gonna drop soon, 58 00:02:42,170 --> 00:02:46,530 and i need to get some more junk in the trunk before I do my big video. 59 00:02:46,590 --> 00:02:48,130 Ms.Richards... Coco! 60 00:02:48,180 --> 00:02:50,480 Coco,this is insane. 61 00:02:50,530 --> 00:02:54,360 All right,it has nothing to do with affirming your african american heritage. 62 00:02:54,380 --> 00:02:55,930 You're doing it to become a star. 63 00:02:55,970 --> 00:02:58,190 Pitita potato,french fry. 64 00:02:58,270 --> 00:03:00,430 Look,what you're asking for is one step away 65 00:03:00,440 --> 00:03:03,420 from putting shoe polish on your face and singing mami. 66 00:03:03,490 --> 00:03:04,670 It's highly offensive. 67 00:03:04,730 --> 00:03:09,190 You know,you guys,you do ass implants,you do collagen injections, 68 00:03:09,260 --> 00:03:12,790 but yet you guys would like to send me to the back of the bus 69 00:03:12,830 --> 00:03:16,510 when I don't want to have your white version of beauty. 70 00:03:17,560 --> 00:03:19,390 Shame on you. 71 00:03:19,520 --> 00:03:20,700 What's the harm,really? 72 00:03:20,740 --> 00:03:22,690 Oh,I can tell you what the harm is. 73 00:03:22,790 --> 00:03:27,240 The harm is me not achieving my destiny. 74 00:03:28,960 --> 00:03:33,490 I want my goddamn reparations. 75 00:03:35,500 --> 00:03:38,550 We have an opening thursday morning. 76 00:03:39,890 --> 00:03:42,250 All right. 77 00:04:35,020 --> 00:04:40,430 Nip/Tuck Season5 Episode17 "Roxy St. James" 78 00:04:48,760 --> 00:04:50,720 It's a breast cancer support group. 79 00:04:50,740 --> 00:04:53,360 "Join us as we learn to embrace our new bodies, 80 00:04:53,380 --> 00:04:57,200 love them as they are now,not as we wish them to be." 81 00:04:57,220 --> 00:05:00,620 It'll be good for you to be around people who are going through what you're going through. 82 00:05:00,670 --> 00:05:02,510 One-titted soccer moms. 83 00:05:02,570 --> 00:05:04,890 Thanks,buddy boy,but it's not for me. 84 00:05:04,940 --> 00:05:08,640 Seriously,you need to do something to deal with your fear about all this. 85 00:05:08,680 --> 00:05:10,940 I'm not scared,I'm angry. 86 00:05:11,010 --> 00:05:12,780 Same thing. 87 00:05:13,610 --> 00:05:16,630 All right,maybe I'll take a look at it. 88 00:05:18,020 --> 00:05:18,940 Sean. 89 00:05:19,000 --> 00:05:20,110 Liz. 90 00:05:22,490 --> 00:05:24,350 It's chilly in here. 91 00:05:27,940 --> 00:05:29,560 This is why I don't have sex with friends. 92 00:05:29,620 --> 00:05:31,960 I'd rather bang somebody I don't like. 93 00:05:33,930 --> 00:05:35,400 I lied. 94 00:05:35,480 --> 00:05:36,580 I came. 95 00:05:36,650 --> 00:05:39,090 You were right,I had an orgasm. 96 00:05:39,150 --> 00:05:42,840 I had a big,fat,juicy,bone rattling orgasm. 97 00:05:42,900 --> 00:05:43,600 Happy? 98 00:05:43,650 --> 00:05:44,710 Yeah. 99 00:05:44,800 --> 00:05:46,410 You know,I wasn't even trying. 100 00:05:46,450 --> 00:05:48,870 You don't get it,do you? 101 00:05:48,920 --> 00:05:52,040 When I was 21,I discovered i was a lesbian. 102 00:05:52,090 --> 00:05:54,440 It was my independence day. 103 00:05:54,540 --> 00:05:58,420 I finally understood who I was supposed to be. 104 00:05:58,470 --> 00:06:02,740 Now,you decide to get your rocks off one night and I don't know up from down. 105 00:06:02,790 --> 00:06:03,810 Christ. 106 00:06:03,870 --> 00:06:04,640 You in love with me? 107 00:06:04,670 --> 00:06:05,760 What? 108 00:06:05,830 --> 00:06:07,210 No. 109 00:06:07,270 --> 00:06:11,220 This is larger than your ego, Christian. 110 00:06:11,300 --> 00:06:17,180 I have spent 20 years dreaming of finding the woman who would share my life with me. 111 00:06:17,240 --> 00:06:18,100 And now? 112 00:06:18,160 --> 00:06:18,920 Now? 113 00:06:18,980 --> 00:06:21,090 I don't know if a woman could satisfy me. 114 00:06:21,170 --> 00:06:23,370 No one ever has,not like that. 115 00:06:23,410 --> 00:06:24,980 You know,you're over thinking this. 116 00:06:25,010 --> 00:06:27,900 My cock has mystical powers,that's all. 117 00:06:27,950 --> 00:06:28,840 It'll pass. 118 00:06:28,850 --> 00:06:30,460 It'll pass? 119 00:06:30,530 --> 00:06:31,480 I can't sleep. 120 00:06:31,510 --> 00:06:32,250 I'm distracted. 121 00:06:32,280 --> 00:06:37,080 I caught myself checking out a...a muscle magazine at a newsstand. 122 00:06:37,600 --> 00:06:39,320 You know what we need to do? 123 00:06:39,420 --> 00:06:40,420 We need to have sex again. 124 00:06:40,460 --> 00:06:42,350 Oh,I would rather die. 125 00:06:42,390 --> 00:06:45,210 Me,too,but we need to know if this is a one time thing. 126 00:06:46,270 --> 00:06:47,360 If you don't have a seismic event again, 127 00:06:47,390 --> 00:06:51,780 then you'll know you were destined to clap clams for the rest of your life. 128 00:06:51,820 --> 00:06:54,650 You know,most people who have had traumatic life experiences, 129 00:06:54,720 --> 00:06:58,770 they gain sensitivity,but no,not you. 130 00:06:58,860 --> 00:07:01,390 I know your destiny, Christian. 131 00:07:01,440 --> 00:07:04,770 You are destined to die alone. 132 00:07:13,070 --> 00:07:14,500 Anything else? 133 00:07:14,560 --> 00:07:16,330 Uh,my eyes. 134 00:07:16,570 --> 00:07:18,840 I've got these awful bags now. 135 00:07:18,900 --> 00:07:21,470 That's because you haven't slept,honey. 136 00:07:21,540 --> 00:07:23,040 You just need to rest. 137 00:07:23,130 --> 00:07:24,170 Oh,and my lips. 138 00:07:24,230 --> 00:07:26,220 They're so thin and pale. 139 00:07:26,300 --> 00:07:29,480 And that's because of your diet,even you said so. 140 00:07:29,510 --> 00:07:33,590 I look like I've aged 10 years in the last 6 months,and I know you can tell. 141 00:07:33,630 --> 00:07:40,360 Between taking care of you and watching eden move to europe to do those awful movies,I just. 142 00:07:40,440 --> 00:07:43,360 don't feel like myself anymore. 143 00:07:43,910 --> 00:07:48,120 I...i want to look younger,more hopeful. 144 00:07:48,180 --> 00:07:50,580 Like I did when we met. 145 00:07:51,090 --> 00:07:54,930 Can you please tell her how ridiculous she's being? 146 00:07:54,990 --> 00:07:56,630 She doesn't need all this work done. 147 00:07:56,670 --> 00:07:58,510 And what about the risks involved? 148 00:07:58,560 --> 00:08:03,140 As I recall,she's quite up on the adverse effects of western medicine. 149 00:08:03,190 --> 00:08:08,180 Specifically its crude approach vs.Your eastern techniques. 150 00:08:08,190 --> 00:08:10,710 Was that about what you said? 151 00:08:10,750 --> 00:08:14,010 I'm curious to know why you're so open to it now. 152 00:08:14,090 --> 00:08:16,290 Well,it saved julia's life. 153 00:08:16,340 --> 00:08:19,310 How can I still deny the benefits? 154 00:08:20,060 --> 00:08:23,030 Did we talk about liposuction for my thighs? 155 00:08:23,090 --> 00:08:25,250 I'll be in the waiting room. 156 00:08:33,780 --> 00:08:36,250 You two seem. 157 00:08:36,560 --> 00:08:38,540 very happy together. 158 00:08:38,840 --> 00:08:44,040 Yeah,in a weird way,with everything that's happened,it's somehow brought us closer. 159 00:08:44,110 --> 00:08:46,550 I can't imagine being without her now. 160 00:08:46,630 --> 00:08:51,790 And with all of this work,it'll give us a fresh start. 161 00:08:51,840 --> 00:08:54,710 That's kind of what new york's about,too. 162 00:08:55,230 --> 00:08:56,420 New york? 163 00:08:56,480 --> 00:09:00,070 I accepted a position at nyu's teaching hospital. 164 00:09:00,120 --> 00:09:02,720 We're moving back in 3 weeks. 165 00:09:05,730 --> 00:09:07,030 When were you gonna tell me? 166 00:09:07,070 --> 00:09:07,880 New york? 167 00:09:07,960 --> 00:09:10,540 You're planning to leave in 3 weeks and take connor and annie with you? 168 00:09:10,610 --> 00:09:12,190 She wasn't supposed to tell you. 169 00:09:12,260 --> 00:09:14,460 How long were you going to hide it from me? 170 00:09:14,870 --> 00:09:19,360 This from a man who fooled everyone into thinking he was a cripple? 171 00:09:19,440 --> 00:09:21,380 Why are you so upset,Sean? 172 00:09:21,450 --> 00:09:24,980 It's not like anything's changed between us. 173 00:09:25,040 --> 00:09:25,820 Yeah. 174 00:09:25,850 --> 00:09:26,940 You're right. 175 00:09:31,480 --> 00:09:34,230 Nothing ever changed for me,julia. 176 00:09:34,280 --> 00:09:35,240 I still love you. 177 00:09:35,310 --> 00:09:37,450 I hate not being with you and our family. 178 00:09:37,470 --> 00:09:40,120 That's why I said those things to you in the hospital. 179 00:09:40,930 --> 00:09:43,100 Sean,stop it,please. 180 00:09:43,140 --> 00:09:44,480 No,I won't stop. 181 00:09:44,520 --> 00:09:46,350 Not till we're together again. 182 00:09:51,650 --> 00:09:56,530 Sean,were you able to fit me in? 183 00:09:59,150 --> 00:10:03,120 I never thought I'd be scared of a dressing room at loehmann'S. 184 00:10:03,150 --> 00:10:07,070 I just felt everyone staring. 185 00:10:07,130 --> 00:10:08,630 First I thought it was all in my head, 186 00:10:08,690 --> 00:10:13,510 but then i noticed my pretend breast had traveled up to my shoulder. 187 00:10:14,230 --> 00:10:16,020 It looked like a corsage. 188 00:10:17,550 --> 00:10:20,060 I was so humiliated. 189 00:10:20,670 --> 00:10:22,810 It helps to know that I'm not alone. 190 00:10:22,870 --> 00:10:25,440 We're all here for you,lauren. 191 00:10:25,610 --> 00:10:29,570 Acceptance is part of the grieving process. 192 00:10:29,650 --> 00:10:31,700 You've had a loss. 193 00:10:31,740 --> 00:10:34,380 But what if you're not the one having trouble accepting? 194 00:10:34,430 --> 00:10:37,610 I mean,I just always thought that jack and I could get through anything, 195 00:10:37,660 --> 00:10:41,590 but ever since he's seen my scar,he won't even touch me. 196 00:10:41,660 --> 00:10:42,960 Son a bitch. 197 00:10:43,010 --> 00:10:44,310 Give him time. 198 00:10:44,370 --> 00:10:46,780 I mean,my husband freaked at first. 199 00:10:46,830 --> 00:10:50,520 And now he actually finds the scar kind of sexy. 200 00:10:51,470 --> 00:10:53,370 He's lying. 201 00:10:54,810 --> 00:10:57,960 He's probably got some hot double-breasted chick he's banging on the side. 202 00:10:58,010 --> 00:10:59,670 That is an awful thing to say. 203 00:10:59,730 --> 00:11:01,350 Oh,come on,wake up. 204 00:11:01,420 --> 00:11:03,040 You think any guy wants to run his tongue along 205 00:11:03,070 --> 00:11:05,780 some misshapen gash instead of some hot pair of titties. 206 00:11:05,870 --> 00:11:09,900 Excuse me,but this is a support group,mr... 207 00:11:09,980 --> 00:11:15,040 Dr.Troy,plastic surgeon and breast cancer patient. 208 00:11:15,110 --> 00:11:20,410 Well,doctor,this is obviously the wrong place for you. 209 00:11:20,490 --> 00:11:22,140 Why's that? 210 00:11:22,210 --> 00:11:25,900 I know what it's like to look in the mirror and see my mutilated body. 211 00:11:25,930 --> 00:11:27,970 But damned if I'm going to accept it. 212 00:11:28,030 --> 00:11:31,810 You need to take charge of your destiny and get some goddamn reconstruction. 213 00:11:31,930 --> 00:11:34,020 Well,that's a choice. 214 00:11:34,060 --> 00:11:37,410 Sweetheart,I've been stuffing healthy tits with implants for 20 years. 215 00:11:37,460 --> 00:11:43,310 Any woman who chooses disfigurement chooses to be a victim. 216 00:11:49,590 --> 00:11:53,310 This is a cancer survivor's group,roxy. 217 00:11:53,350 --> 00:11:56,990 If you have to smoke,do it outside. 218 00:11:59,420 --> 00:12:01,160 Okie dokie. 219 00:12:02,790 --> 00:12:06,120 There's enough smoke being blown in here anyway. 220 00:12:14,700 --> 00:12:19,540 Any of you ladies want support,just,uh, 221 00:12:19,610 --> 00:12:22,510 call my office and make an appointment. 222 00:12:37,430 --> 00:12:38,560 Want one? 223 00:12:38,670 --> 00:12:41,660 I'm not one for mixing my nicotine with my tomoxophin. 224 00:12:41,750 --> 00:12:43,510 I like my poisons one at a time. 225 00:12:43,560 --> 00:12:44,900 Suit yourself. 226 00:12:46,990 --> 00:12:49,600 Are you checking me out,or are you trying to decide which one is real? 227 00:12:49,660 --> 00:12:50,660 They're both real. 228 00:12:50,720 --> 00:12:52,350 Good eye. 229 00:12:52,430 --> 00:12:54,390 Nice rack. 230 00:12:54,960 --> 00:12:58,030 So tell me,what's a girl with a complete set 231 00:12:58,080 --> 00:13:01,650 doing playing in a victims anonymous sandbox? 232 00:13:01,670 --> 00:13:05,650 My mother and sister both died from the disease. 233 00:13:05,730 --> 00:13:08,380 I thought that being around survivors 234 00:13:08,470 --> 00:13:12,650 or people going through it themselves would be therapeutic. 235 00:13:12,710 --> 00:13:13,450 And? 236 00:13:13,500 --> 00:13:16,610 Not so much,it turns out. 237 00:13:17,610 --> 00:13:22,750 What you said in there about taking charge of your own destiny,I liked it. 238 00:13:22,780 --> 00:13:25,900 You look like a woman who likes to take charge. 239 00:13:25,960 --> 00:13:28,230 So what do you think it is? 240 00:13:28,610 --> 00:13:30,020 Your destiny,I mean. 241 00:13:30,140 --> 00:13:32,760 To bang as many beautiful women as I can. 242 00:13:35,040 --> 00:13:36,480 So,doctor. 243 00:13:39,070 --> 00:13:41,070 do I make the cut? 244 00:14:01,580 --> 00:14:03,960 I have to go to those groups more often. 245 00:14:05,650 --> 00:14:08,180 Thanks for the support. 246 00:14:13,140 --> 00:14:15,890 You must be one hell of a surgeon. 247 00:14:17,960 --> 00:14:20,730 You've got very sensitive hands. 248 00:14:22,410 --> 00:14:26,690 You have a very responsive body. 249 00:14:26,750 --> 00:14:29,420 Particularly here. 250 00:14:29,500 --> 00:14:30,760 And. 251 00:14:31,400 --> 00:14:33,030 here. 252 00:14:36,910 --> 00:14:38,450 Yeah. 253 00:14:42,290 --> 00:14:45,980 I'm probably going to miss feeling that once the girls are gone. 254 00:14:46,890 --> 00:14:48,330 What? 255 00:14:50,480 --> 00:14:52,960 What are you talking about? 256 00:14:53,720 --> 00:14:56,870 Those are 2 of the healthiest tits I've ever put my dick between. 257 00:14:56,900 --> 00:15:00,540 I'm not going to be the third person in my family to die of breast cancer. 258 00:15:00,590 --> 00:15:03,880 You tested positive for brca1? 259 00:15:03,930 --> 00:15:05,720 No. 260 00:15:06,980 --> 00:15:09,410 That doesn't mean I don't have it. 261 00:15:10,450 --> 00:15:12,940 I know the statistics. 262 00:15:13,590 --> 00:15:16,300 Removing both breasts cuts the risk by 90%. 263 00:15:16,360 --> 00:15:18,260 But if there's no abnormality in the gene, 264 00:15:18,300 --> 00:15:21,190 I mean... I don't give a shit about the test. 265 00:15:21,250 --> 00:15:23,560 I know I'm going to get it. 266 00:15:25,830 --> 00:15:28,090 It's only a matter of time. 267 00:15:31,040 --> 00:15:34,250 Do you have any idea what it's like to wake up in the morning 268 00:15:35,160 --> 00:15:38,840 scared to take a shower,terrified that. 269 00:15:40,520 --> 00:15:44,130 today will be the day that i find that lump? 270 00:15:45,750 --> 00:15:47,560 I... 271 00:15:48,100 --> 00:15:53,290 can't think about marriage,can't think about kids. 272 00:15:54,800 --> 00:15:56,070 I mean,what's the point? 273 00:15:56,120 --> 00:16:00,920 I'm just going to leave them,just like my mother left me. 274 00:16:10,940 --> 00:16:14,220 I want you to cut them off and replace them. 275 00:16:20,870 --> 00:16:22,650 Who's got this nutjob's implants? 276 00:16:22,720 --> 00:16:25,110 It's gonna look like she's got 36ds in her ass. 277 00:16:25,170 --> 00:16:26,660 Should we play coco's demo? 278 00:16:26,770 --> 00:16:28,430 She asked for it. 279 00:16:29,030 --> 00:16:29,830 Whatever. 280 00:16:29,880 --> 00:16:31,140 Hit it. 281 00:18:47,760 --> 00:18:49,670 You ready for tomorrow? 282 00:18:49,680 --> 00:18:52,260 Just trying to get a preview. 283 00:18:53,710 --> 00:18:55,400 Come,sit. 284 00:18:55,460 --> 00:18:58,380 Before we do a surgery,I like to do a run-through. 285 00:18:58,440 --> 00:19:01,120 Look over the road map,so to speak. 286 00:19:01,490 --> 00:19:05,760 Do you have the name of someone in new york I can call to do the follow-up after the surgery? 287 00:19:05,950 --> 00:19:07,120 Absolutely.Me. 288 00:19:07,130 --> 00:19:11,520 I plan on being out there every weekend from now on. 289 00:19:11,590 --> 00:19:12,410 You what? 290 00:19:12,430 --> 00:19:13,660 Those are my kids. 291 00:19:13,680 --> 00:19:15,580 I'm their father. 292 00:19:15,640 --> 00:19:17,430 I'm not going to leave them for you to co-parent, 293 00:19:17,500 --> 00:19:20,440 especially after the bang-up job you did with your daughter. 294 00:19:20,510 --> 00:19:22,410 Turn to the side. 295 00:19:22,690 --> 00:19:25,360 You're not worried about my parenting,Sean. 296 00:19:25,420 --> 00:19:28,530 You...you just want to stay close to julia. 297 00:19:28,590 --> 00:19:35,090 God,if...if you really love her,just let her go this time,for good. 298 00:19:35,130 --> 00:19:37,400 I could say the same thing to you. 299 00:19:37,450 --> 00:19:39,070 But I did let her go,Sean. 300 00:19:39,120 --> 00:19:41,630 And you know what,she came back to me. 301 00:19:41,680 --> 00:19:47,950 Can't you just accept that julia and I are together for good now,wish us well? 302 00:19:49,180 --> 00:19:50,890 No. 303 00:19:51,570 --> 00:19:55,050 Then how can I trust you to do my facelift? 304 00:19:55,180 --> 00:20:00,080 I never let my personal life interfere with my professional obligations. 305 00:20:17,400 --> 00:20:21,370 You know,I'd feel a whole lot more comfortable if she would have gone to a shrink 306 00:20:21,400 --> 00:20:24,600 and processed some of this before doing something so irrevocable. 307 00:20:24,710 --> 00:20:26,050 It's her body,lizzie. 308 00:20:26,110 --> 00:20:29,670 You can't just be pro-choice when you agree with that choice. 309 00:20:30,240 --> 00:20:33,390 Look,she's afraid,i understand. 310 00:20:33,450 --> 00:20:34,490 Do you? 311 00:20:34,600 --> 00:20:36,380 Do you know what it's like to lay awake at night 312 00:20:36,480 --> 00:20:38,810 and wonder if you're going to be dead within a year? 313 00:20:38,880 --> 00:20:42,610 To look at your kid and try and memorize what he looks like right now? 314 00:20:42,620 --> 00:20:45,480 Or what it's like to hold his hand right now? 315 00:20:45,590 --> 00:20:49,360 Are we talking about saving her life or yours? 316 00:20:49,380 --> 00:20:55,890 You can't cut the fear out of you by taking off her breasts. 317 00:20:55,960 --> 00:20:58,320 15 blade. 318 00:21:11,740 --> 00:21:13,850 I was dreaming. 319 00:21:18,610 --> 00:21:21,290 I was running in a field. 320 00:21:21,370 --> 00:21:23,450 with a child. 321 00:21:23,850 --> 00:21:25,710 Maybe it was mine. 322 00:21:25,790 --> 00:21:28,050 I felt so carefree. 323 00:21:28,110 --> 00:21:29,330 Look,roxy. 324 00:21:29,450 --> 00:21:31,800 I thought it would hurt more. 325 00:21:33,150 --> 00:21:34,790 I'm sorry. 326 00:21:47,610 --> 00:21:50,070 You promised me you'd do it. 327 00:21:50,150 --> 00:21:51,520 I thought you understood. 328 00:21:51,590 --> 00:21:52,550 I do. 329 00:21:52,630 --> 00:21:53,880 I understand that you're afraid, 330 00:21:53,900 --> 00:21:57,280 but you can't let fear dictate something as big as this, 331 00:21:57,320 --> 00:22:01,860 particularly if there's a chance,a good chance,that you might be fine. 332 00:22:01,910 --> 00:22:03,980 Fine? 333 00:22:04,890 --> 00:22:12,620 I have been condemned to death,and there aren't going to be any pardons. 334 00:22:30,090 --> 00:22:34,040 Jesus, Christian,this is a doctor's office. 335 00:22:34,090 --> 00:22:37,010 That's why I wrote myself a prescription. 336 00:22:37,080 --> 00:22:39,470 You have any idea how good this government shit is? 337 00:22:41,740 --> 00:22:44,000 Pass me mr.Bubbles. 338 00:22:55,970 --> 00:22:57,700 Why are you so dressed up? 339 00:23:01,820 --> 00:23:02,720 What do you think? 340 00:23:02,800 --> 00:23:05,710 I was going for old hollywood glam. 341 00:23:05,740 --> 00:23:06,720 You look great. 342 00:23:06,740 --> 00:23:08,530 What's her name? 343 00:23:09,120 --> 00:23:10,420 Steven. 344 00:23:10,490 --> 00:23:11,140 Butchy. 345 00:23:11,150 --> 00:23:17,100 He's an anesthesiologist,and I met him at an iars conference just a little bit ago. 346 00:23:17,220 --> 00:23:18,600 And he has been very persistent. 347 00:23:18,700 --> 00:23:20,950 Well,let me give you a word of advice,lizzie. 348 00:23:21,060 --> 00:23:23,630 Nobody can give it to you the same way that I did. 349 00:23:23,780 --> 00:23:26,400 Ok?So,stop shaving your armpits 350 00:23:26,460 --> 00:23:30,130 and get backto your sloppy gap pullovers and your hicima salad. 351 00:23:30,180 --> 00:23:31,800 You're wasting your time! 352 00:23:31,860 --> 00:23:33,120 Liz. 353 00:23:47,890 --> 00:23:51,300 Steven elsbury,this is Christian Troy. 354 00:23:52,960 --> 00:23:53,890 Want some? 355 00:23:53,970 --> 00:23:54,650 No thanks. 356 00:23:54,720 --> 00:23:55,960 Never touch it. 357 00:23:59,870 --> 00:24:01,490 You look amazing. 358 00:24:02,490 --> 00:24:03,750 Well,thank you. 359 00:24:04,640 --> 00:24:06,000 So. 360 00:24:06,060 --> 00:24:09,380 what do you 2 lovebirds got on tap for this evening? 361 00:24:09,410 --> 00:24:13,500 Well,I made a reservation for dolce,but it's such a scene. 362 00:24:13,610 --> 00:24:16,680 Now,I just got a batch of movies in from netflix. 363 00:24:16,740 --> 00:24:19,210 We could order in,talk. 364 00:24:19,220 --> 00:24:20,910 That sounds fantastic. 365 00:24:20,930 --> 00:24:21,480 Great. 366 00:24:21,510 --> 00:24:22,830 Great. 367 00:24:34,760 --> 00:24:36,470 You might want to open up a window, Christian. 368 00:24:36,540 --> 00:24:39,760 I followed the smell all the way from the lobby. 369 00:24:41,120 --> 00:24:43,370 She's a lesbian. 370 00:24:48,450 --> 00:24:51,530 Am I the only one who thinks that getting a facelift 371 00:24:51,580 --> 00:24:56,060 when you run a holistic healing practice is just a teensy bit hypocritical? 372 00:24:56,080 --> 00:24:58,060 It has nothing to do with her career. 373 00:24:58,130 --> 00:25:00,320 She's insecure about julia. 374 00:25:00,370 --> 00:25:01,920 She knows she's on shaky ground. 375 00:25:01,990 --> 00:25:04,530 Then why are they both moving to new york together? 376 00:25:04,600 --> 00:25:06,560 The further away she takes julia, 377 00:25:06,640 --> 00:25:09,780 the more she'll be able to control their relationship, 378 00:25:09,830 --> 00:25:12,600 what she remembers,and who. 379 00:25:12,620 --> 00:25:16,190 Julia's in no shape to be making life decisions. 380 00:25:16,260 --> 00:25:19,940 Olivia's taking advantage of her vulnerability. 381 00:25:22,420 --> 00:25:23,520 Poor Sean. 382 00:25:23,600 --> 00:25:25,250 You really think she'll come back to you, 383 00:25:25,320 --> 00:25:30,220 that you've got some deep bond that time and space can't separate. 384 00:25:30,240 --> 00:25:31,620 When are you going to get it? 385 00:25:31,670 --> 00:25:32,960 She doesn't want you. 386 00:25:33,000 --> 00:25:36,720 Once she remembers who we were to each other,the life we had together. 387 00:25:36,820 --> 00:25:40,710 All she remembers of her marriage to you was that it was a failure. 388 00:25:40,770 --> 00:25:43,250 She knows how deep my commitment to her was. 389 00:25:43,320 --> 00:25:44,090 Really? 390 00:25:44,200 --> 00:25:46,470 Like when she was sick and you were banging my daughter? 391 00:25:46,500 --> 00:25:47,230 Shut the hell up. 392 00:25:47,240 --> 00:25:48,700 Kill me,why don't you? 393 00:25:48,750 --> 00:25:50,640 You'd like to,wouldn't you? 394 00:25:50,710 --> 00:25:54,230 Your life would be so much easier if I wasn't in the way. 395 00:25:54,320 --> 00:25:56,220 Don't tempt me,olivia. 396 00:25:56,280 --> 00:25:57,850 You'll never kill me,Sean. 397 00:25:57,880 --> 00:25:59,790 I'm in julia's head. 398 00:25:59,850 --> 00:26:00,920 I'm in her heart. 399 00:26:00,990 --> 00:26:02,230 I said shut up. 400 00:26:02,330 --> 00:26:03,470 Sean,she's in vtac. 401 00:26:03,600 --> 00:26:05,170 Her rate's 150. 402 00:26:05,670 --> 00:26:06,920 Get the defibrillator. 403 00:26:06,970 --> 00:26:08,380 Charging paddles. 404 00:26:11,640 --> 00:26:13,000 I'm going to shock her on 3. 405 00:26:13,080 --> 00:26:13,850 Ready? 406 00:26:13,920 --> 00:26:16,480 1,2,3. 407 00:26:16,920 --> 00:26:18,110 She's in arrest. 408 00:26:18,160 --> 00:26:20,310 I'm starting cpr.Call 911. 409 00:26:30,670 --> 00:26:31,980 How is she? 410 00:26:32,030 --> 00:26:33,810 Stabilized. 411 00:26:33,870 --> 00:26:38,010 Sean's with julia at the hospital,and he said he'd call when he knew more. 412 00:26:38,610 --> 00:26:40,240 I don't understand how this happened. 413 00:26:40,330 --> 00:26:42,190 She'll be fine,lizzie. 414 00:26:42,260 --> 00:26:43,750 Besides,you did everything by the book. 415 00:26:43,790 --> 00:26:45,670 She'd be dead if it wasn't for you. 416 00:26:45,710 --> 00:26:47,390 Remember that. 417 00:26:50,900 --> 00:26:52,020 Now what? 418 00:26:52,410 --> 00:26:54,090 Now what? 419 00:26:54,970 --> 00:26:56,670 Now,we wait. 420 00:26:57,460 --> 00:26:58,900 You like sports? 421 00:27:08,340 --> 00:27:09,330 Hello. 422 00:27:10,150 --> 00:27:11,460 Is dr.Troy in? 423 00:27:11,540 --> 00:27:12,400 Do you have an appointment? 424 00:27:12,410 --> 00:27:13,200 No,no. 425 00:27:13,270 --> 00:27:14,340 I'm a friend. 426 00:27:14,400 --> 00:27:15,950 Well,he's finishing up a consult right now, 427 00:27:15,960 --> 00:27:18,230 but he usually checks back in when it's done. 428 00:27:18,290 --> 00:27:19,850 Do you have an outlet? 429 00:27:22,700 --> 00:27:24,610 How was your date with evan? 430 00:27:25,050 --> 00:27:26,300 Steven. 431 00:27:26,320 --> 00:27:27,900 Whatever. 432 00:27:28,890 --> 00:27:30,970 It was a dream. 433 00:27:32,190 --> 00:27:37,030 He ordered pizza,we watched 3 days of the condor,and then,he made me dessert. 434 00:27:37,780 --> 00:27:41,550 There is no greater foreplay than flambe. 435 00:27:42,180 --> 00:27:44,100 Did he make you cum? 436 00:27:44,380 --> 00:27:46,040 Yeah. 437 00:27:46,180 --> 00:27:49,060 He's got mystical powers,too. 438 00:27:53,400 --> 00:27:56,480 I think it would be better if you sat over there. 439 00:29:12,300 --> 00:29:13,040 Listen. 440 00:29:13,120 --> 00:29:14,690 Why olivia,Sean? 441 00:29:14,810 --> 00:29:19,670 In all this time you've been operating,you've always been so careful and so thorough. 442 00:29:19,690 --> 00:29:23,070 Now,isn't it just possible that you weren't careful with her 443 00:29:23,120 --> 00:29:27,460 because somewhere in that dark soul of yours, 444 00:29:27,510 --> 00:29:29,690 you just wanted to be rid of her? 445 00:29:29,740 --> 00:29:31,380 Are you blaming me? 446 00:29:31,450 --> 00:29:33,280 I can't believe you said that. 447 00:29:33,290 --> 00:29:34,750 You lied about the wheelchair. 448 00:29:34,790 --> 00:29:35,800 You lied about monica. 449 00:29:35,820 --> 00:29:36,900 You lied about megan. 450 00:29:36,960 --> 00:29:39,490 You're a liar and a cheater. 451 00:29:43,880 --> 00:29:45,760 Are you dr.Mcnamara,ms.Lord's physician? 452 00:29:45,830 --> 00:29:47,460 How's she doing? 453 00:29:48,380 --> 00:29:50,400 I'm afraid we weren't able to save her. 454 00:29:50,500 --> 00:29:53,460 Her heart stopped at 5:03. 455 00:29:56,270 --> 00:29:57,250 Oh,my god. 456 00:29:57,800 --> 00:29:59,030 I want to see her. 457 00:29:59,760 --> 00:30:01,120 You have to let me see her. 458 00:30:01,170 --> 00:30:01,810 I'm sorry. 459 00:30:01,890 --> 00:30:02,820 Who are you? 460 00:30:02,860 --> 00:30:05,510 I'm her partner,god damn it. 461 00:30:05,580 --> 00:30:06,550 Of course. 462 00:30:06,570 --> 00:30:09,260 If you'll just wait a few minutes. 463 00:30:12,010 --> 00:30:14,650 I will never forgive you,Sean. 464 00:30:14,710 --> 00:30:18,860 Now,there is going to be an autopsy,and if you have any culpability at all, 465 00:30:18,930 --> 00:30:22,810 it will be revealed,and I will make sure that you never work again. 466 00:30:22,870 --> 00:30:23,650 I hate you. 467 00:30:23,730 --> 00:30:25,580 I hate you! 468 00:30:25,670 --> 00:30:26,930 This is all your fault. 469 00:30:27,040 --> 00:30:27,820 Julia. 470 00:30:27,910 --> 00:30:30,230 How could you do this crap? 471 00:30:51,230 --> 00:30:54,570 I just want to say... I know what you're saying,so just shut up. 472 00:30:54,600 --> 00:30:56,630 I mean,jesus,she almost died in the lobby. 473 00:30:56,640 --> 00:30:58,470 I should never have listened to you. 474 00:30:58,520 --> 00:31:03,750 I'm going to remove her other breast,like she asked me to,so that she doesn't have to. 475 00:31:06,820 --> 00:31:12,330 What I was going to say,Christian,is that you were right. 476 00:31:12,380 --> 00:31:13,560 It's what roxy wants. 477 00:31:13,650 --> 00:31:15,430 It's her body. 478 00:31:16,190 --> 00:31:20,950 She's alone,and she turned to us with her fears,and we didn't listen. 479 00:31:22,190 --> 00:31:24,340 I didn't listen. 480 00:31:24,840 --> 00:31:26,380 I'm sorry. 481 00:31:27,990 --> 00:31:29,370 And let me tell you from experience, 482 00:31:29,510 --> 00:31:33,750 there is nothing worse than having to face your fears alone. 483 00:31:34,980 --> 00:31:36,650 Give me 15 blade.Come on.Hurry up! 484 00:31:44,650 --> 00:31:46,620 We lost her. 485 00:31:47,440 --> 00:31:49,650 Olivia's dead. 486 00:32:14,740 --> 00:32:16,780 It wasn't your fault. 487 00:32:16,810 --> 00:32:18,360 Isn't it? 488 00:32:19,820 --> 00:32:21,890 I wanted her to die. 489 00:32:22,150 --> 00:32:26,170 I had this fantasy during the surgery. 490 00:32:27,600 --> 00:32:30,890 this urge to just. 491 00:32:32,130 --> 00:32:35,650 I wanted her out of julia's life so I could get back in. 492 00:32:35,730 --> 00:32:38,630 Fantasizing about something and actually doing something about it... 493 00:32:38,670 --> 00:32:40,420 2 completely different things. 494 00:32:40,450 --> 00:32:43,130 You know the real irony in this? 495 00:32:43,200 --> 00:32:45,190 Now that olivia's dead. 496 00:32:47,280 --> 00:32:51,410 I've lost julia forever. 497 00:32:54,240 --> 00:32:56,610 I feel like I'm in some greek play. 498 00:32:56,690 --> 00:33:03,420 You try to control your fate,but the gods have other plans. 499 00:33:06,510 --> 00:33:09,190 Maybe I'm just,uh. 500 00:33:09,280 --> 00:33:12,440 not supposed to have her. 501 00:33:12,850 --> 00:33:15,660 Maybe I'm supposed to. 502 00:33:16,320 --> 00:33:18,260 be alone. 503 00:33:19,200 --> 00:33:25,550 I think that's my fortune cookie you're reading there,pretty boy,not yours. 504 00:33:29,890 --> 00:33:33,380 Dr.Kotchman called with the toxicology report. 505 00:33:33,470 --> 00:33:38,530 Olivia was on antidepressants,and she didn't tell us. 506 00:33:38,600 --> 00:33:40,010 Are you sure? 507 00:33:41,080 --> 00:33:44,860 That's why she went into arrest...mixing it with the anesthesia. 508 00:33:44,930 --> 00:33:49,040 If she had told us,we could have weaned her off before the operation. 509 00:33:49,100 --> 00:33:51,940 She should have known better. 510 00:33:52,030 --> 00:33:54,770 We didn't do it,Sean. 511 00:34:09,600 --> 00:34:10,960 It doesn't make sense. 512 00:34:11,030 --> 00:34:13,110 Why would she keep that a secret? 513 00:34:13,210 --> 00:34:15,220 Maybe she felt embarrassed. 514 00:34:15,320 --> 00:34:20,630 A healer taking medication for an emotional disorder went against everything she believed in. 515 00:34:20,700 --> 00:34:24,830 New york's going to be so strange without her now. 516 00:34:27,900 --> 00:34:29,540 You're still going? 517 00:34:32,250 --> 00:34:36,840 On one of our early dates,olivia took me to the cloisters. 518 00:34:37,180 --> 00:34:41,150 She loved the architecture there and the history. 519 00:34:41,220 --> 00:34:44,070 It's where we fell in love. 520 00:34:44,120 --> 00:34:47,940 Spreading her ashes there is what she'd want me to do. 521 00:34:48,010 --> 00:34:50,230 Like hell she would. 522 00:34:51,600 --> 00:34:53,900 I did not just suffer the red-eye from budapest 523 00:34:53,940 --> 00:34:57,060 to have you steal my mother away from me yet again, 524 00:34:57,120 --> 00:35:00,410 you bony little parasite. 525 00:35:09,740 --> 00:35:13,790 Well,at least you made it easy for me to take her home. 526 00:35:13,880 --> 00:35:17,650 Getting the coffin through customs would be a bit of a hassle. 527 00:35:18,050 --> 00:35:20,070 I didn't expect to see you here. 528 00:35:20,170 --> 00:35:24,070 Don't they usually arrest hacks who kill their patients during surgery? 529 00:35:24,140 --> 00:35:26,960 Eden,I'm very sorry about what happened, 530 00:35:27,010 --> 00:35:30,820 but your mother died because she never disclosed the medication she was taking. 531 00:35:30,880 --> 00:35:33,920 She kept her prescription a secret from all of us. 532 00:35:33,990 --> 00:35:37,500 You mean the antidepressants she was on for the last 6 months? 533 00:35:37,640 --> 00:35:39,270 That secret? 534 00:35:39,340 --> 00:35:41,710 How did you know? 535 00:35:42,870 --> 00:35:46,010 Oh,I knew all of her secrets,julia. 536 00:35:46,160 --> 00:35:50,530 Like the real reason why she started to take the pills to begin with. 537 00:35:50,590 --> 00:35:53,190 She was depressed. 538 00:35:55,230 --> 00:35:58,730 because she was the one who shot you. 539 00:36:02,620 --> 00:36:05,140 She started drinking after you told her you slept with Christian. 540 00:36:05,270 --> 00:36:08,770 She was a mess,and you were in the bed weak and tired. 541 00:36:10,650 --> 00:36:12,680 The day she shot you,she was completely smashed. 542 00:36:12,760 --> 00:36:14,670 She must have though you were a burglar,I guess. 543 00:36:14,730 --> 00:36:15,750 You're lying. 544 00:36:15,810 --> 00:36:18,050 She was miserable,julia. 545 00:36:18,140 --> 00:36:19,770 You made her that way. 546 00:36:19,890 --> 00:36:21,520 And in the end,you killed her. 547 00:36:21,590 --> 00:36:23,350 You expect us to believe all that? 548 00:36:23,400 --> 00:36:25,280 It doesn't matter what you believe. 549 00:36:25,360 --> 00:36:26,560 It's the truth. 550 00:36:26,630 --> 00:36:28,880 Why do you think I left the country? 551 00:36:29,910 --> 00:36:32,020 I've been keeping this a secret the entire time. 552 00:36:32,110 --> 00:36:34,880 I couldn't turn my mother in,could I? 553 00:36:36,170 --> 00:36:38,560 Think about it. 554 00:36:38,650 --> 00:36:40,710 Maybe she didn't tell anyone that she was on the medication 555 00:36:40,830 --> 00:36:44,580 because she wanted to die in surgery 556 00:36:44,620 --> 00:36:47,430 'cause she couldn't live with the guilt of what she did anymore. 557 00:36:47,460 --> 00:36:48,920 No. 558 00:36:48,940 --> 00:36:51,560 She didn't have to do that if it was an accident. 559 00:36:51,610 --> 00:36:52,870 I would have forgiven her. 560 00:36:52,940 --> 00:36:55,930 Well,it's a little too late for that,isn't it? 561 00:37:01,500 --> 00:37:04,010 You know what the really shocking thing is? 562 00:37:04,060 --> 00:37:06,330 She actually loved you. 563 00:37:09,010 --> 00:37:14,600 That's why it hurt so much when she nearly killed you. 564 00:37:14,910 --> 00:37:20,560 But if you think that you could forgive her for what she did. 565 00:37:21,620 --> 00:37:24,100 then I guess. 566 00:37:24,440 --> 00:37:27,230 you deserve to have her back. 567 00:37:42,990 --> 00:37:44,470 You want to hear a bedtime story? 568 00:37:44,520 --> 00:37:46,880 I heard yo' stink bitch again. 569 00:37:46,920 --> 00:37:47,860 What? 570 00:37:47,920 --> 00:37:49,320 Who played that for you? 571 00:37:49,360 --> 00:37:50,980 Daddy did. 572 00:37:51,930 --> 00:37:52,780 It's catchy. 573 00:37:52,850 --> 00:37:55,810 It's number 8 on youtube and climbing. 574 00:37:57,890 --> 00:38:04,800 Aunt lizzie thinks that's a very nasty song and not for little boys. 575 00:38:04,850 --> 00:38:06,310 It's time for you to go to sleep. 576 00:38:06,380 --> 00:38:07,840 Give me a little kiss. 577 00:38:09,930 --> 00:38:14,230 Don't you let those bedbugs bite you,ok? 578 00:38:15,460 --> 00:38:16,620 Good night,auntie liz. 579 00:38:16,670 --> 00:38:18,390 I love you. 580 00:38:19,900 --> 00:38:21,310 And I love you. 581 00:38:21,390 --> 00:38:23,770 Will you be here in the morning? 582 00:38:23,840 --> 00:38:25,340 Probably not. 583 00:38:25,380 --> 00:38:29,750 But I am going to see you very,very soon,ok? 584 00:38:30,390 --> 00:38:32,460 Nighty-night,buddy boy. 585 00:38:40,200 --> 00:38:42,180 Are you leaving? 586 00:38:42,780 --> 00:38:44,230 Are you mad? 587 00:38:44,610 --> 00:38:45,800 No. 588 00:38:48,400 --> 00:38:54,610 The truth is,I'm sensing that he's beginning to expect me here even in the mornings, 589 00:38:54,680 --> 00:38:58,050 and i just...I don't think that's a good idea for any of us, 590 00:38:58,120 --> 00:39:00,120 you know,for the obvious reasons. 591 00:39:00,200 --> 00:39:01,130 Which are? 592 00:39:01,190 --> 00:39:05,490 Well,mainly,I'm not your significant other. 593 00:39:05,560 --> 00:39:06,420 Well,you are kind of. 594 00:39:06,470 --> 00:39:10,250 I mean,not really,but sort of. 595 00:39:10,290 --> 00:39:13,980 In what world would something like that make me feel good? 596 00:39:14,040 --> 00:39:14,950 In the real world. 597 00:39:14,980 --> 00:39:17,590 Just be real with me. 598 00:39:17,670 --> 00:39:19,030 You want real? 599 00:39:19,080 --> 00:39:19,760 Ok. 600 00:39:19,850 --> 00:39:20,930 All right. 601 00:39:22,650 --> 00:39:24,520 I lied about steven. 602 00:39:25,340 --> 00:39:27,640 I didn't have a fabulous orgasm. 603 00:39:27,720 --> 00:39:31,210 It was more like being bitten by an oversized mosquito. 604 00:39:31,300 --> 00:39:33,120 It was hell. 605 00:39:34,030 --> 00:39:36,710 Christian,I don't like men. 606 00:39:37,770 --> 00:39:40,560 I like you. 607 00:39:45,240 --> 00:39:46,620 Told you I was the shit. 608 00:39:46,700 --> 00:39:47,970 You are shit. 609 00:39:48,010 --> 00:39:49,610 That's for sure. 610 00:39:50,100 --> 00:39:54,200 But the point is,it has nothing to do with technique or gender. 611 00:39:54,310 --> 00:39:55,970 It's you. 612 00:39:57,200 --> 00:39:59,140 You are a jerk. 613 00:39:59,150 --> 00:40:04,130 You're pompous,ridiculous,infuriating,and yet,somehow,I get it. 614 00:40:04,200 --> 00:40:06,130 I get it. 615 00:40:07,520 --> 00:40:09,870 And underneath it all, 616 00:40:10,530 --> 00:40:19,410 I know that you've got my back in a way that nobody else does or ever has,and. 617 00:40:19,700 --> 00:40:23,330 I know who you are,Christian. 618 00:40:23,410 --> 00:40:26,320 I watch how hard you struggle to be strong, 619 00:40:26,390 --> 00:40:30,060 and you struggle to be better,and I don't know. 620 00:40:30,120 --> 00:40:33,850 Somehow,it just moves me. 621 00:40:33,860 --> 00:40:36,800 And I don't know what to say, Christian. 622 00:40:36,950 --> 00:40:38,060 I think I'm... Not the "l" word,lizzie. 623 00:40:38,070 --> 00:40:40,800 Just stop right there. 624 00:40:41,930 --> 00:40:43,010 I get it. 625 00:40:43,060 --> 00:40:45,600 I feel exactly the same way. 626 00:40:45,740 --> 00:40:47,300 Most of the time,you drive me batshit, 627 00:40:47,360 --> 00:40:53,020 but you're the only woman I really trust. 628 00:40:53,140 --> 00:40:58,580 And you care about me unconditionally. 629 00:40:59,600 --> 00:41:02,920 understand me and my kid and. 630 00:41:04,450 --> 00:41:05,620 I love you for that. 631 00:41:05,720 --> 00:41:08,590 No "l" word,remember? 632 00:41:10,360 --> 00:41:13,200 Is it really so terrible for wilbur to wake up 633 00:41:13,290 --> 00:41:18,890 to aunt lizzie at breakfast several mornings a week? 9999 00:00:0,500 --> 00:00:2,00